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When i made this site, i wanted to post daily. Yet here i am 2 days after my last post. I have found little motivation to do anything.
The constant job search is so draining and dealing with family piles on top. My friends are too busy or too good for me nowadays so im alone for the most part.

“and when nobody wakes you up in the morning, and when nobody waits for you at night, and when you can do whatever you want. what do you call it, freedom or loneliness?” -Milan Kundera

I fear i always have a facade on, that i have forgotten who i truly am. That to keep everyone happy i have to sacrifice bits of myself to keep them close.
Is it selflessness or fear? the fear of being me.

I hope to update this site daily, even a short post. I need my motivation back.